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| Zoe & I before school ended (pc to Sarrita) |
Hello everyone, I have been absent for a while & all I can say is that this summer has been both super unproductive but also one of the best summers ever (posting pictures throughout this blog post). Going into it I thought that I was going to be locked up in my house doing nothing but sleeping all day & gaining weight. THANKFULLY this summer has proven to be the total opposite. For some reason, my mom totally surprised me & became really lenient with me, meaning I'm allowed to go out often, stay out pretty late, & even sleepover friends houses! Crazy never had I expected my mom to have this sudden change, but she told me she trusts me & that really means a lot to me. So I've been able to see my friends but also hang out at home with my family, it's great.
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| A picture that very drunk me took of my friend Ray Ray at my first party lol |
More great news, my dad told me not to worry about getting a job while i'm home & take some time to take care of myself & my siblings, but he told me to also try to get my license while I was home. So, I took my permit test & three weeks later i'm happy to say I PASSED!!! I'm so happy that I was able to set my mind to something and achieve my goal. I know I am still not the best driver out there, but hey practice makes perfect!
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| TWIN PEAKS SHOW AHH |
Also, I have been getting ready to move back to SF soon by changing the time I wake up & also my eating habits. I wake up everyday at 6 in the morning to take my brother to cross country practice & try my best to not fall back asleep. I want to start running too but exercise is so blah to me, I try to get into working out but agh I hate that I hate it so much. Anyways, being awake early makes the day feel longer as well as preparing my body to wake up early once I go back to work & school because I have class at 8 am everyday...and work everyday...ugh already dreading it but that's life!! I also decided to transition back to vegetarianism & hopefully it sticks with my for longer than a couple of months. It's been almost a month now, for some reason this time around it's become a lot easier for me to resist meat. Especially when it comes to family gatherings, I am not afraid to say "No thanks" to my family when they offer carne asada or carnitas because now I am doing it not only because I love animals, but because when I am a vegetarian I get really creative with my meals and incorporate a LOT of veggies & fruits, I love it!!! Hopefully in SF i'll be able to fully transition to veganism.
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| A mission in Santa Barbara |
I mean reading over this it sounds like i'm doing pretty good, i'm not going to sugarcoat it & say that I have not struggled mentally this summer because I have struggled a lot with random surges of sadness as well as anxiety, but talking about it makes me feel better. I have also still been struggling a lot with my financial aid again which sucks a lot, however, I know that everything will turn out how it's supposed to so hopefully the universe is with me and allows me to go back to school without the constant worry of money struggles.
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| Ventura Beach |
I am constantly being told by my loved ones that I will be okay, only until recently have I begun to believe them. Life is weird and fucked up, but i'll figure it all out eventually.
& if you are going through something similar or going through a rough patch, keep in mind that even though it sounds like bullshit, you will get through it. Have faith in yourself & know you are a strong & beautiful individual :)
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| Driving in Santa Barbara |
I have two important posts that I am currently writing up that I am very excited to talk about because they are both very important subjects to me, so I hope to get those up soon.
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| Zoe in Huntington Beach |
Hope you are all doing well!!!
