Heyyyyyoooooo lil nuggets! Now that we are only a couple days away from 2016 (whhhhhaaatttt?!) I decided I would share my thoughts on how things went this year and maybe squeeze in a tiny resolutions list!!
So, starting off, 2015 was such an odd year and i'll admit I wish I could go back and fix some things, but honestly all the trials and tribulations of this year made me realize a lot about myself. The most important thing I learned this year: I am surrounded by beautiful souls and people who truly do care about me. When I say "people" I mostly mean my family. As I have stated before on my blog, I recently started school. From April-July, I was anxiety filled and unsure of whether I would be able to attend SFSU or not. Financial Aid was a huge issue, and in the end I found out that a complication in the paperwork resulted in me not being able to receive any financial aid. I cried...a lot. Leaving home was something that was a goal of mine ever since I moved schools. The town I live in has nothing to offer me, and I know that if I would have stayed i'd be stuck, but, I did not want to put my family in an economical strain. In the end, both my parents and my stepparents made the selfless decision to help me out and allow me to make the 400+ mile move to San Francisco. I still cry every time I have to make a payment, and being broke is not fun, but I have everything I need and more. Not going to lie, September was tough being away from my family & not having met the cool group of noodle head friends that I now have, but it really all has fallen into place. Sure, money is the cause of most of my anxiety, but anxiety is something I have always had to deal with and I know it will never fully go away. However, leaving high school and leaving Santa Fe Springs has allowed me to see more in myself & people. I feel happier and I feel more like myself. I finally get to do things I didn't get to, I get to dress how I want and express myself. I still have a lot to learn, but 2016 i'm comin' for ya.
As for my resolutions, all I want to do is focus more on the present and be content with how things are. I don't like the mentality of "next month, year, day, will be better!" because I want to be happy with how life *currently* is. Highkey I also want to be healthier & go all natural with my makeup and everyday products. Hey, maybe i'll even try veganism out one more time :)
Anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this, if I work hard enough i'll finally have a camera to post better quality photos sometime in 2016:)
Have a Happy New Year!!!!
-Jess
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