bored + broke

 Day 2 of summer vacation and it is definitely not what I have been expecting. I'm home alone, really broke, and really tired of hours and hours of job hunting. I broke my phone a couple days ago, leading to me having to pay for a new one. This was my first big purchase for myself, since prior to this the only real payments I was making was for my housing. Anyone who knows me personally knows how stingy I am with my money & how conscious I am about the ways that I spend it, so this really made a dent in my bank account & my heart (lol). But oh well I have a cool new phone now that I paid for so I have to be really responsible and mindful about how I treat it.

With this unexpected purchase, it set me back. I need to think about the amount of money I am going to need for our apartment, so I can't sit around at home anymore. I definitely need a job, but for someone who gets nervous around people, the thought that I need to get a job that isn't with kids scares me. I don't want to mess up or have to deal with rude customers, but I also can't keep hiding because eventually I need to learn how to have social skills. Obviously a simple job at a fast food or retail store would fulfill my need to learn these skills. I can't be afraid of getting a more fast paced job because it's not going to get me anywhere. I'm too old to be having these kinds of fears, I just have to get over it??? Everyone deals with rude customers once in a while, but a phat a$$ check makes up for it, I guess. I shouldn't let other people's scary customer stories freak me out because that's like a once every blue moon situation. 

Overall, I'm trying to go into getting a new job with an open mindset. Even if I hate the job, it's only going to be for two months until I go back to SF to a job I love!! I wish there was a job that I got paid to sleep, I LOVE SLEEP!!!

Hope everyone is feelin' good :)

-Jess